Neon Dreams

The firefly light
Wrapped in an eternal mist
Embrace so soothing and tight
Hard to imagine what doesn't fit

Compose.
Yourself for another dragging day
Anchored to the left but tied to the right
As the plates diverge and you away,
Pain.

And constantly you catch yourself
Hiding the gate to your crumbling mind
Insecurity just another name on this cluttred shelf,
Even you are afraid of what you will find

Contemplate.
All the implications of insomnia
The undetermined isolation initiating
A gentle sewing of the seeds of paranoia
Reason.

Eyes closed and you float in space
Through aeons of love, pain, and hate,
No matter what dimension or forgotten place
The conflict inside cannot abate

You travel in time through harrowing dreams
Speaking to the Shaman of demonic means
They speak not in lies or in half-truths
But in riddles decoded by elven slueths.

In stranger tiles of fantasy
You bow before It's Majesty,
An unholy breed of heathen fox
Neither man nor woman, not cow nor ox.

Speaks to you in your forgotten tongue
But you remember as a child you were one,
Telling you of fortune and immortal gain
But still that constant inward pain.

And with the liver of a blaspheming Jew
It's Majesty brews a drink for you,
As your screaming throat begs to be wet
You wake up in bed drenched in sweat.

Even thought it can't be real
There's no denying what you still feel,
A persistent, thrashing agony
That begs your mind not to be.

Incisions.
Peel away the rotting flesh
The tender of the bone will tell
Future endeavours and tales of success
Lies.

At the window you hear the call
The incesant pain begging to be nothing at all,
In the adjacent there's something to retrieve
An old loaded pistol acquired to relieve.

The barrel melting into your dry mouth as you heed the call
Beyond tears and clenched fingers, your neon dreams paint the wall.

Will You Be a Ghost

They pry at me
I beg to bury
A picture to cry,
Now I must lie.

Give me an opportunity
Collectively I'll slaughter,
Destroy these heathen emotions
Rewind destiny

To a place where
It was being sewn
To the fabric of time
And I'll take back what's mine.

But what if I fail
Where can we go
Can we hide in the streets
Will you be a ghost

I want to give you something more
That's what hurts the most,
Now it's getting hard to breathe
But this water's only knee deep.

Just stand up,
Stand up and you can be free
Did they teach you to walk
Or did they only breech your lungs

Darling please, just take my hand
I promise it won't be too bad
This foreign land.

How do I gain perspective
When it's just us and them,
F**k their green incentive
We need a grey range to mend.

There's so much broken here,
But that's plain for all to see
Too bad ignorance is bliss
And we drink it with our tea.

They broke our eyes
So our minds can't see
What honest joy is,
What it's like not to bleed.

So take another line
Its just a simple rope,
Used to bide their time
So they may be your hope.

So darling lets have that covering fire,
Let's abdicate to the sea
Let's commit a little suicide
And here, we'll cease to be.

Sink So You Can See

Later I'll recount, reminisce
I promise it never meant more
No it never meant more than this.

And between us, the barrier
Of similarity and difference
Of public uproar,
Oh I see in this theater of war.

Not land, nor sea
In the air we sink,
Fall into my sea
Sink so you can see.

See how these tears freeze
Maybe I was born into this,
Why I'm not begging on my knees
Shouting, take it now, fix me please.

A state, induced by you
Estate, only leased to you.

One day you have to bring it back
Victimized in this silent attack,
Just another deed to be forgotten
So that sweet dreams may blossom.

Your garden is in full bloom
A grand medley of the most gracious colours
Sit with you in this serene room
Saying what did you do for such flowers.

Keep them docile
Feed them flesh,
Sacrifice rather than toil
Blood at master's behest.

Give them a sense of security
Feed my lambs hope,
Give them an infallible diety
Keep my lambs on a short rope.

There is no fire to lead you into
Only an acid tidal wave,
And as they molest themselves
Wth devices of subtle torment
Know that we were the warning.

Convince yourself you didn't remember
When you face judgement in the eyes of your God,
For subconcious is no excuse
When God hates us all.

Don't resist it when you float away
Drowning only hurts when you struggle,
You had to die someday
What better way.

Than with me, floating into nothingness
There was always so much doubt anyways
Now we are not even swimming.

It seems you forgot how to swim
Like you forgot how you were warned,
Attendance to more pressing matters
Such as maintaining a state of non resistance.

Wasn't our comfort your estate,
So what is your death,
are you really even dying,
Or did you grow f**king gills.

If I could hate
I would hate you and time,
A constraint that gives us order
An order that crushes hope.

If you didn't bind me to your system
Enslave me from birth,
I might have lived through this
And you might have too.

Why were you so intent
On killing yourself like this,
Why did you have to take everyone
In infinite potential, even divinity dies.

A divinity quite unlike
The one you sold us,
With scriptures promising eternal life.

Breaking.
Down.
Why did you have to test it all
Breaking.
Down.
Trust.
I know I have my shortcomings
Even if she can't see them now
I trust her but not myself
So why are you killing everyone
Breaking.
Down.
Trust.
Me.
A million f**king lies,
Told to appease
This temporary condition. A state.
Obviously your estate.

This revolution is my Bastille
My constant lapses
Masked by even more constant lies.

So give me a second before I die,
A second to tell everyone that I lied,
Admit that nothing can be perfect,
Admit that divinity is flawed.

Gaze starward and sink
Into this valley,
This great abyss
I wish you could realize, I am only this.

Nothing more than a dissapearing notion,
A nod towards the sun
That permeates my soul
And blisters my acid tongue.

You resonate within them
Like a haunted carcass,
Forget that I warned them
Dismiss my hypocricy.

Dismiss my blatant lies
And avoid the scathing truth.

We can only hide for so long.